Sometimes you just have to go big or go home.

Painting on a larger scale where you must move your whole body to complete the marks, more than just you arm or your hand or your fingers…You move your whole body up and down and around the wall moving ladders and lifts and stepping back and forth.  You crawl all around and in the three dimensional space in front of that wall to birth the image.

Connecting my physical body to my mark-making impulses connects me to my craft and to my voice in a deeper way.  The wall calls me to presence.

Having to publicly display the process, the hidden parts, the mistakes and re-do’s, the re-thinkings…and it’s vulnerable.

It’s exposure therapy for my OCD. You have to let go and you have to walk away.

It’s a thrill and a joy and one of my favorite things in the whole world to do.

“I slow down to the speed of wisdom”

I heard this quote recently & while I don’t know the origins, these words hit me right in that aha spot and got my attention. Something inside of me is asking me to slow down and go inward. With social media connecting all of us with instant and constant updates, it’s sometimes hard to remember that it’s ok to unplug from constant connection. I have been feeling stuck between the pull of going inward and the guilt of needing to stay connected and offer consistent content. This quote snapped me right out of that purgatory so I could see clearly how remaining stuck in that middle ground does not serve me or anyone else. So today I slow down to the speed of wisdom and give myself permission to tend to my creative journey that flows from the inside out. .

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I’m ready to create a new body of work. To give birth to something I have never brought to life before. It’s a space filled with anticipatory fear and vulnerability. And I must get quiet and listen. Listen to the whispers of the uncharted territory. And follow their call wherever they may take me.